Pieces of Her

:warning: Trigger Warning: This contains depressing and suicidal thoughts, for your own sake, if you are uncomfortable reading with topics like the mentioned things, do not continue reading :warning:

As always, please , you are loved and cared for ( ◜‿◝ )♡

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Pieces of Her

She was a shattered mirror. If not, then perhaps a shattered glass, a very shiny one at that, one that you can see your reflection through.

Whenever someone tries to get too close, they get hurt by her. Not intentionally, she doesn't even realize she's carving herself to them, until they scream in agony when they can't handle it anymore. When they can't handle the pain anymore, when they can't handle her anymore.

How sad.

Every time they try to fix her she becomes happy, happy for someone caring enough to try. But she knows, like humpty dumpty, she can't be put back together again, she just knows thus the reason she pushes anyone away when they're becoming too attached to her.

How sad and lonely.

So eager to be happy, she tried everything. Pretending to be someone they're not and eventually being found out and such. Until slowly it wasn't eagerness that was driving her to do such things anymore, it became desperation. So desperate to have someone by her side, desperate to feel love and happiness.

One day she thought she finally found the one. Turns out he wasn't and no one was ever gonna be. She felt so betrayed, so used and always abused.

How sad, lonely, and painful.

She learned her lesson, was what she told herself. Locked herself inside her own little world and wouldn't let anyone in. Dozens knocked and cried for her to open up, but she just wouldn't listen. Dozens yet none reached her.

How sad, lonely, painful, and exhausting.

She stood up, finally went out. Her family greeted her, happy to see her again. She ate, bathed and said her goodbyes.

They all asked where she's going, but all she said was nothing but lies.

She's had enough, she's been through enough.

Went on top of her favorite bridge. It's freezing outside, like herself inside. Stood at the top, tip toed at the tip. With a little push from the wind, she let gravity handle her body. She fell in. For the first and the last time now, she truly smiled.

What was once sad, lonely, painful, and exhausting. Was now finally peaceful and resting.