motivation loss

i’ve known about shifting for a long time now and i’ve created my own reality.

i spent months perfecting it, creating characters and at this point, i know my script by heart ahah.

the thing is, i think it’s been two months since i lost all motivation to actually get to my dr (haven’t shifted yet) and it’s kinda sad.

like sometimes i almost feel like my boyfriend (thats in my dr) is with me in my cr and like i can talk to him.

idk if my subconscious is telling me to take a break or wtv.

i tried creating new realities; harry potter, mcu

but i’m not more enthusiastic about them.

i’ve been off amino for so long idek anymore.

i know i can do it, that’s not the problem but i just seem not to feel.

sometimes i feel like i’ve given up on it, on my friends, and that i might never make it.

i’m scared it’s just all in my head and i won’t get to experience it.

that’s ranting omg^

anyway it’s really taking a toll on me rn so eh.

i have seen a post somewhere on amino where the loss of motivation could mean you’re close but like i don’t even get the motivation to lay down and listen to subs or even try a method.

that’s kinda where i’m at so, have a good week