to my future self

100

to: 2030 summer

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dear future self,

hello there. i hope you're doing good. i hope you're doing things you never thought possible. i hope you're enjoying yourself, and doing what you love.

i know life is tough. i know sometimes you just want to give up. hell, as i'm writing this i've given up on so many things already i can't even count. but i want you to know that it's okay to give up sometimes. not all the time - hold on when you can, but if you really can't, it's alright to give up and give yourself a break. don't feel bad because you have to let go of things sometimes. sometimes, giving up and letting go is for the better. don't sweat it.

do you that bucket list? how far have you come? how many things have you achieved? don't worry if there are still lots of things you haven't done. you've got a whole life ahead of you! i know that by now you've probably done so many amazing things i could only have dreamt of doing and i'm proud of you for that.

by now, you should have completed all education (unless you decided to hurl yourself into the medical field or similar, then you probably will still be studying), and i just wanted to check in - how was it all? was it hard? did you make lots of friends? did you do well? i hope you did. if you didn't, though, don't worry. it's alright. you've made it here already! i'm proud of you for fighting your way through that. i'm proud that you made it out alive.

are you working yet? i assume you are. what are you working as? whatever it is, i'm sure i'd be proud of you for it. did you get your dream job, and made it in the media industry? don't fret if you haven't, it's all good. whatever you do, even if it isn't your dream job, it's the best job you could have, as long as you're having fun and enjoying yourself. that's the most important.

have you got a significant other? it's scary to think about as i'm writing - having a significant other. but i hope that you've found someone who will take good care of you and give you unconditional love. and also cuddles. and maybe cookies, because those are nice too. (i low-key hope that you've had your first kiss too, and i'm sure you have teehee) whoever they may be, i hope that they treat you well and that you in turn treat them well too.

i hope that you're alright emotionally too. as i'm writing this, i'm not in the best state emotionally and mentally, but i'm sure you'll get there. i hope that you can wake up every morning to something that makes you happy, to look forward to. i hope that you can smile genuinely and not feel sad all the time. i hope that you can live your life contented, and happy, and full of laughter and smiles. if things aren't going your way at the moment, as you read this, i hope that you will feel better soon. just know that you are loved and that whatever you do, i you fully.

i just wanted to tell you to be as proud as i am to have come so far. you're ten years older than the summer writing this, and look how far you've come! you've done so much and come so far and held on for so long and i commend you for that. i just wanted to remind you about how amazing you are and how proud you should be for being here and reading this now.

with that, i'll sign off now, and i once again congratulate you for making it this far, and wish you all the best in your future endeavours.

lots and lots of love,

2020 summer

26 july 2020, sunday

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