No one understands me...

You all think you know Lila? Think again. I came up with this fanfic idea when seeing how the fandom reacted to the friendship of Kagami and Mari in Ikari Gozen. It got me thinking. People feel sorry for Chloé and Kagami... what about Lila? Surely there's a reason she lies. So I made up a back story and here we are! It's not great but I have to start somewhere! :wink: Anyway enjoy :purple_heart:

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You know my name, everyone does. I'm known for the lies. For the manipulation. Lila Rossi. You look at me; you see a girl that will do anything to become popular, anything to mess up people's lives. But look a little deeper. Behind the porcelain mask I wear you'll see a broken girl. An unloved girl. A girl desperate to belong.

My family? No brothers. No sisters. Just me and my mother. I use the word mother lightly. Yes she is my family but her job forces her to be away every day. We don't have a loving relationship. I can't even the last time we spoke face to face. It's always a mere text or voice mail she left. Would she even recognise my voice? I doubt it. She's always too busy for her 'little girl' that sometimes I feel like I don't even know her.

What about my father? I can't even him. He left home when I was six. He said he'd return. He said he'd come back and we'd live a happy life together. 10 years have ed and I haven't seen him since. I always kept that tiny ray of hope that he'd actually come back, maybe that's where my lying originated from? False hope.

I don't expect you to feel sorry for me. I know I'm a bad person but I just thought... oh god why am I telling you this? You don't care. No one ever does. No one understands me...

People look at me and think they know me. They think they know my life story. You don't know half of it...

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Slipping her school bag onto her shoulder she carefully filled it with the maths homework she was supposed to have finished. Knowing her she'll make up a lie to get out of detention, most people fell for them anyway. She grabbed her keys off the shelf near the door and stepped out into the crisp morning air.

The wind blew calmly as she turned around to lock the door. She tucked the loose strands of hair behind her ear and looked at her faint reflection in the glass window. She didn't look as perfect as she normally did what with her oversleeping but it would have to do.

She threw her keys into the side pocket of her bag and strutted to school; her heels clicking on the pavement, a warning to others that she was on her way.

Upon arriving at school she greeted a few people before walking right up to Adrien Agreste. She glared as she saw him with Marinette and Alya. Maybe it was jealousy running through her veins? Or maybe it was just the fact that she hated that bluenette.

She fiddled with her bag strap for a second before approaching the group.

"Hey guys! I need to borrow Adrien for a minute, we have a project to work on." She went to grab his hand but he slowly pulled away.

"Lila? What project?" Adrien plastered a puzzled look on his face as Lila bit her lip. She looked up to see Marinette with her arms folded. Lila smiled as she put her arm around Adrien.

"You know, that project we were asked to do. Come on!" She carefully dragged him away from the others and up the stairs to the library. She smirked at Marinette as they disappeared from sight.

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Why do I do what I do? It's simple. I want to make others feel the way I've felt for years. They treat me as if I'm nothing most of the time. It's only fair if I do the same back. We've established I'm mean. But why was I forced down this road? Behind the porcelain mask I wear is a weak girl, unsure of what to do. Please, somebody come save me...

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As they say down on one of the tables Adrien put some distance between himself and Lila.

"Lila? Why did you drag me away from the others? We don't have a project to do." Lila put down her bag and moved her chair closer to Adrien.

"Sure we do." She started drawing circles on his arm, trying to get a reaction from him.

"Lila please stop that, I don't know what's come over you lately but you need to stop." He reached out for her hand and took it off his arm. She looked around the room to make sure no one else was there. She put her finger over his mouth.

"Shhhh Adrien. Relax, it's me. We're friends ? You can trust me." She gazed into his eyes and secretly got her phone out and put it on her lap. She clicked on the camera icon and made sure she had a firm grip of it.

"Just tell me what's wro-" Before he could finish his sentence Lila tilted his head down and kissed him. Surprisingly Adrien started kissing back. When she noticed his eyes were closed she took her phone from under the table and took a photo.

She smiled to herself as she quickly hid it and focused on the kiss. Adrien was the first the break apart. "What the hell was that for?!"

"Sorry I just got carried away." She bit her lip again and tried to look as innocent as possible. "You are a really good kisser."

"Um, thanks I guess." He felt his phone vibrate as he took it out. "Sorry I've got to go, fencing lesson. I'll see you later Lila." He picked up his bag as he ran out of the library.

Lila took back out her phone and clicked on the photo. She grinned to herself as she emailed it to Marinette using an unknown address. She picked up her bag as she flicked her hair back and walked out.

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Maybe I went too far with it, but she deserved to pay. At the start of the year she went around the school and tried to turn the rest of the class against me. Maybe she was telling the truth but she doesn't understand my reasonings behind what I do.

I do it to feel wanted. By creating a bad reputation for myself people suddenly notice me, don't want to get on the wrong side of me. Feels good to belong to somewhere after having a whole childhood of being ignored.

Maybe one day people will understand, will learn the truth about me, will give me the I need instead of shutting me away. A manipulative liar is all you see but someone please come save me...

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Thanks for reading! I know it's not that long but I didnt want to keep dragging it out as it would probably just get too repetitive. If you have the time please leave a comment and give me your verdict (if it's negative then tell me how I could improve as that would be much appreciated)- I'm always looking for ways to improve so any means a lot to me :heart:

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