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i have to write a rant for everyone instead of only on my wiki for it. so like it's about evan who plays aki in 'the gossip girl reboot'. i first watched the video of them finding out which og and new character they are while he's so sweet and relatable in this. he's like in a place with thomas and that girl playing audrey while he seems so comfortable and happy there. like he's answering the questions in his own way,but then i watched the drip or drop challenge video from cosmo where the whole cast participated in and the comments are so disgusting. the video is basically about them having to pick between those fashion items and in the end there's like a speed round where they have to chose between drip or drop after they're given an item. and like that clearly shows how evan is more of an introvert. i don't know much about them so far,so i don't know if he like has anxiety or something like that or if he's simply someone introverted like i am. anyway he was like barely answering those questions while in between he checked his phone etc. which most people found rude and unfriendly. i actually read more comments than i should,but i can't believe how introvert people are immadiately seen as rude just because we don't really interact with others. it was probably too much for him with the whole cast being there and not just thomas and that girl who he might be closer to based on them having many scenes together. and like i believe that he sometimes had a delayed answer,but because it was either silent or the others talked in a chaotic way he decided not to say anything anymore. because otherwise he might feel awkward about it. but honestly it's just his way of interacting. like for example at times he showed his ring or shoe while in general doing something instead of saying a word which is his own way of handling such situations. but there are always such ignorant people out there who can't tolerate introverts at all. like why are extroverts always so much better and more loved?? those people can honestly stop talking most of the time. and even we can never understand extrovert people,we don't judge them like everyone judges us all the time without even giving us time to show ourselves. however a good thing is that my time in school taught me how to ignore such people. like you can be succesful and all that even with an introvert personality. and like youtube and tiktok made me find people i'm so thankful for just because i feel so understood and valid. and some inspirations for staying honest with myself while not caring about others are yibo,riki,thomas brodie-sangster and now also evan. also coming back to evan i hate how people started to judge his acting literally based on the first episode in that comment section while they were already going mad about his reserved personality. but like i read it's his first role,so like he honestly did so amazing. i'm not trying to be biased,but the way he portrayed aki left me so speechless especially because he's a bisexual character. and i just think that he delivered those feelings and thoughts in such an authentic and understanding way which makes me feel so proud. people also said things like 'he doesn't even want to be there / why is he acting like he hates it? / others deserved his spot more' and i'm so blown away by the blind hatred and jealousy of some people. apparently introverts were never supposed to have good things,but that's why i'm extremely happy when people like evan find their people. like people who they can call their friends,people they're warming up to,people they can tease and joke around with,simply people who make them feel comfortable. plus i'm so excited for s1b while i can't wait to see more from evan. i mean he's the reason i ended up here,so yes i'm definitely excited

talking about the whole introvert thing if you ever need someone to listen i'm always here and i can share my own experiences as well. for example things i can't do well and how i handle those,how i control my emotions and aspects like that. plus i can also share people who make me feel safe and comforted as well as understood if you ever need inspiration both from celebrities and others. it honestly helped me so much in case of accepting myself,so it might help you too 🥺 :revolving_hearts: