New Journey :pray:

Hi All!

So I know it has been a HOT minute since I’ve last

posted on here. I have been insanely busy with

work and life. I recently had an incident happen

that has shifted my focus onto myself rather than

other people. With the help from T&D Readers I am finally taking some steps to regain my self respect and self love.

Last night I started my self care by drawing up a

bubble bath. I did a hair & face mask, had some

LED candles for some ambiance and listened to this self love meditation. I’m working on prioritizing myself and living in the moment. Baby steps :sweat_smile: .

Today I wrote down some positive affirmations

and intentions that I have set to help me get into

a loving space. After I wrote those down and the

love grew, I decided to shuffle my Soul’s Journey

deck (created by James Van Praagh) while I said

the affirmations/intentions out loud and took and

messages that fell out. Here’s the messages that

came out and my interpretation:

The predominant thing I’ve noticed is that most of

the cards are different hues of purple, which is

the color of the Crown Chakra (which enlightens

the spiritual connections of one individual to the

others, and also to the supreme beings via colorpsychology.org). I’m not all that knowledgeable on

the chakras, but the first thing I took notice of

when I noticed the cards was the predominant

purple color and I thought of chakras.

The cards are laid out in the order they fell out, so

I’ll be using the Guidebook (as I am still

inexperienced with this deck) to help me break

down my messages.

Loneliness

”I know that I am never alone.”

Well I never thought I would it this here, but

not too long ago I was feeling very over

emotional, and to make a long story short, I

ended up breaking down because I felt like none

of my friends cared about me. I felt like I put more

effort into them than they did to me, and I felt like

they only made plans with me if it was the

absolute last resort. I felt extremely alone, and I

swore to not agree to make plans with my friends

until they started stepping up. Now that I can

digest this message, I’m here to reality-check

myself. I have given too much of myself to other

people to the point where if I don’t have frequent

plans with those people, I see it as them not

caring about me. The truth is we all have our own

lives to live and we get busy. I need to stop being

so afraid of being by myself and start embracing

the opportunity to relearn myself and my

boundaries. At this point I’ve given too much of

myself to others that I don’t know who I am

anymore; and I need to take the time to find

myself once more.

Empathy

”I am open to seeing both sides of a situation”

With this I feel like it’s relating to expectations

and rushed timing. I’ve been trying to manifest a

relationship and although I recognize we have our

own paths to cross, I tend to focus on “why is this

not happening for me? How can I speed this up?”

rather than “what are they going through? What

obstacles do we need to get through in order to

come together?” Divine Timing is a checkbox of

lessons we need to learn in order to reach our

fullest potential, and in trying to rush through that

checkbox, I’m not learning the full lesson. This

also ties into Loneliness where I am so dependent

on being with somebody else, that I am not giving

myself (or them) the opportunity to explore

ourselves as individuals. Sometimes it’s hard to

be comionate towards other people, but we

all have our own journeys to go through; and

sometimes those journeys need to be done by

ourselves. I need to learn that this person is going

through their Divine Checkbox just as I am going

through mine. We’ll meet when we’re both whole,

complete people.

Perseverance

”I know that I can do whatever I set my mind to”

With this card I’m getting strong Fool energy with

taking a leap of faith. The message that I’m

getting is to fight against my fears so that they

don’t hold me back. I need to be confident and

allow myself to enjoy some (within reason)

recklessness.

Discipline

”I can accomplish what I set my mind to”

This of course relates to Perseverance. I’m

essence, whatever it is that I want to do, I CAN do

it. I need to stop holding myself back from

opportunities. Each opportunity presents a

lesson for me to learn. Now that I’m at a place

where I am paying attention and willing to accept

and approach my lessons, I need to give myself

the chance at some victories!

Courage

”I find the inner strength to face fear with confidence”

Again, I need to fight against my fears and stop

holding back. If I expect a negative outcome I will

only receive a negative outcome. If I don’t

venture into the unknown, I’ll be stuck in the

same cycle. It’s time to venture into the

uncertainty and see the magic that the universe

has to offer.

Imagination

”I embrace and nourish the creative aspect of my mind”

What I create is what I receive. It’s time to come

out of the darkness and surround myself in the

light. Approaching new ventures with love will be

received with love. It’s time to call in my wildest

dreams with loving energy in order to receive

them.

Surrender

”I can release my need to control”

This reminds me of what I said with manifesting.

I’m focusing too hard on how quickly or soon

something will happen rather than letting the

universe take the reigns. I need to release the

rushed energy and just let the lessons come.

Honesty

”I can’t always expect the truth from others, but I can expect it from myself”

I need to stop holding myself back. I’m blocking

friendships from coming in (leaving if they don’t

serve me) or strengthening by not sharing myself

with others. I don’t need to bite my tongue when I

disagree with someone in fear of breaking a

bond. It’s time to live to my greater good — not

someone else’s.